posts like this

posts like this often triggers way too much unwanted attention/questions, which makes me toy with the idea of password protecting my blog...frankly, i seriously doubt i have an issue of people reading stuff i write, but perhaps i dislike the they attempt to interpret it and get it entirely wrong! and trust me, if i wanted you to know the true story, i would've told you personally already. Not sure about other bloggers, but many a times, this blogging thing..is really a spur of the moment thing, it barely reflects the day to day state of mind..if you know what i'm talking about.

Its barely justifiable to conclude i love a particular person, or i am depress, or i am confused, or anything else, simply by your interpretation of reading between the lines. Who knows..the posts might even be merely to confuse people, or some people, or necessary evil to fan off unwanted attention, and at this moment, i see a image of JH saying "Don't Judge"...

but its true i guess, we all often try to decipher what we read...i guess its only natural, but truly, if you really want to know, you can have a go at asking me, and perhaps, you might find out the truth.

Right now...i only know that in a months time, 2 of the closest girls (apart from family) to me...1 going to walk down the aisle, another flying back to the UK, and maybe walking down the aisle soon too? I'm so excited to see them venture into a new phase of life, but its going to mean changes as well..no more frequent sleepovers..

Speaking of marriage, it used to be a tangible concept in the past, but right now, its being shelved, I've been asked this questions rather frequently of late: "whats the likelihood of you falling in love again?"..truth is..i think i have (sometime last year), though the subject matter perhaps has absolutely no clue..but i like it this way. [don't even try to reconcile all you know about it, because there will be too many missing pieces from the puzzle]. Experience has truly redefined what love means to me and at this point in time, it means patience. Somehow this time around its different, it feels like the right thing to do for now is to let go. And the beauty of letting go is learning to embrace a new level of faith and trust, that the Father knows His child's heart.

Love is no longer obsession or possession, if there's anything i learnt at all about love, when it happens it happens! And one day in the silence, if you listen carefully enough you'll hear, a heart that beats in sync with yours, and people wonder: how would you know? I can only say, that you will, when it happens...