Sunday, October 28, 2007

of late...

i've been struggling with things i love to do, need to do, and want to do
feels like i don't have time to do things i love
not motivated to do things i need to do
and afraid to do what i want to do

though i love how our mind develops as we aged
the complexity it brings is not necessarily pleasant
at times, i rather surrender to simplicity and innocence
yet our experience shapes us

its hard to ascertain the origin of this frustration
perhaps its the fact that what used to put a smile on my face no longer does
the things i once sought after, are no longer what i want
and the bitter realization of this

then there is the discovery of things that you never thought would make your heart leap
the exploration of paths you once fear to walk down
taking a deeper look within the self and finding the infinite horizons

hence despite this on going debate in my mind
the unpredictability of life continues to amaze me
and i want to be caught unaware
and allow the unexpected to surprise me

and so....
this is what has been happening...of late


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