uncertain

i am uncertain of what the future holds,
uncertain of what lies ahead,
unable to control my affect,
unable to rewire my brain,
it seems so natural to be close,
so difficult to be strangers,
its a war within,
a battle i don't wana fight,
i don't want to be uncertain,
because i am certain of what i feel.


and back in Sep 2005 i said...

My greatest fear

I only learn to cherish your smile
when i see your tears

I only learn to appreciate your words
when i hear none
I only learn to treasure you
when you are away

I want to comfort you
when you are down
I want to be by you
now, and always

but my greatest fear
is that i ...
am the cause of your drops of tears

has my fears emerged?...